LondonI open my eyes and my world is a blur. I blinked over and over to clear up my vision so I can tell what was going on. As the bright light sent a stinging sensation to my newborn like eyes, I sat up and let them adjust to my surroundings. I looked around my room to see this wasn't my room back in California. Forgot where I was for a second. It was a small apartment with a table, two chairs, flowers in every corner. A tiny kitchen and with my little dog sleeping next to the oven, Oh that dog always was sleeping. There was a sliver tray with a teapot and some round biskets that looked like thick pancakes. Crumpets! I thought to myself, My girlfriend must have made them before she went out on the town. Been with my girlfriend for over 2 years now and she was always begging me to come visit her home town, just can't believe I'm here.
I walked over towards the window to see the busy street of Oxnard with Double Decker buses and people strolling down below me. I can hear all the chatter of pe
Birdcage NecklaceSitting on a perch is never wanted my life to be. I grip onto the steel bars that keep the outside world from my grasp. I see the bright light shining day after day and I want to fly towards it. Every day I sing to let them know I am here but she throws things and tells me to SHUT UP. I've felt so trapped for 20 years sitting on my perch. My feet are hurting, lost the feeling in my wings. Not even sure I can fly anymore, too scared to even try. But now one more year has passed, she steps towards the cage, opens the latch, I feel my wings start to twitch, and she opens the door and I zoom out!
I look at this necklace of a tiny yellow bird inside a yellow cage and it will always remind me of my time being held back by my mother and now that I am 21 she has finally let my have my own opinions and tell her what I want in life.
My Soul is...My Soul is .
Like Superman holding a building
Over his head
Like wonder woman's steel bands
As she deflects bullets
Like Batman hiding in the shadows
Before he strikes his next victim
Like green lantern's power ring
To shine in the blackest night
My soul is my hero
It will always be there to save me.
Always rememberedAs sunlight fills my room, I sit up and clutch my pillow tight. Today is the day, I thought to myself. It has to be today..or maybe not. I jump at the small knock on the door. "Sis, we are leaving now." says a tiny voice from the other side of the door. " ok have fun with mom and dad and Chris! call me and take lots of photos ok?" "OK!" as every step he took to the sound of the car door slam and the engine starting I could feel my heart pumping louder and louder. " what am I going to do?" Another jump to the sound of a bell. It's just my phone I said to myself thinking that would calm me down.
"where the hell are you?"
"At home why?"
"Is he there with you?"
" oh that stupid Brandon kid! the one from you birthday party, the one you were all over in front of me, how could you?"
"what are you at-"
"Don't BS me babe! I know you like him and I will fu-"
Ouch, I thought to myself. That doesn't feel good. Ouch! I clutched my stomach as I fell to the floo
September 11Another day at the office. It is a cold Tuesday morning coming into the same building, going to the elevator, and ask the nice man who's always in a rush to get to his floor. Press 77 please? Finally I get out of the crowded elevator and go all the way across the room to my small and quite suffocating cubical. All I can hear is my coworkers talking about what they are doing this week or what they are planning to do this weekend. I can smell the coffee being brewed a few cubicles down. Yup! It was a normal day at work and nothing has seemed to change.
Then Brad comes up to me to talk about his crazy mother; pestering him about his bills and him finding a wife. "I don't know why she's always saying, find a nice wholesome girl. I'm not 5 years old and I know God will find me someone. You know one of these days I will- CRASH!!!!!! What in the world? What was that? I couldn't hear a thing. What's going on? Screaming, moaning, people in fear. Brad helps me up, "are you ok, Debra?"